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Worship Pre-fessional February 15, 2008

Filed under: Personal Life,Worship Confessionals — 6kids1me @ 12:33 am

Well, I’m still sick, but my fever broke this morning.  That means I’m no longer contagious…..still diseased, but not contagious.  🙂  So I was able to attend practice tonight.  My voice held up much better than I expected and I’m grateful for that.  I’m still going to keep fairly quiet over the next couple of days in an effort to maintain my voice so I can sing Sunday.  Please pray for me.

Just before I was leaving my house tonight, I got a wonderful surprise.  Bro. Keith (our pastor) and his lovely wife Annette came over.  They didn’t come in (since we’re all sick around here), but they gave me a really sweet card AND brought supper for my family!!!!  That was SUCH A BIG HELP!  Rodney was tired after working all day and I was definitely not feeling good.  Not having to cook supper was so incredibly helpful tonight.  And it was Popeye’s chicken and fries, which my whole family loves.  And here’s something interesting about it….there was actually enough for everybody in my family to eat their fill.  That may not sound like a big deal, but most people don’t realize just how much food it takes to feed this size family.  Thank you sooooo much, Keith & Annette!!!!!  We are truly grateful.

And now on to the pre-fessional….

We learned two new songs tonight at practice, so it ran a little long.  I’m kind of frustrated about equipment right now.  We’ve only got a certain number of channels on our mixing board, so we’re limited in how many mics we can hook up.  This week, we need more and aren’t able to do it.  We don’t want to buy another mixing board because as soon as we’re in our new building we’ll have a mixing board with more than enough channels.  So for now we just have to adjust.  That’s okay though….just a couple more weeks.  🙂

So this week on vocals we’ve got Speedy, Shalyian, Jennifer, Bryant, Raymond & myself.  On instruments we’ve got Josh on drums, Raymond on keyboard & Bryant on acoustic/electric guitar/mandolin.  FUN!  Lot sof stuff happening vocally this week.  Bryant, Raymond and I will each be leading different songs.  We’ve got a really great worship set lined up and I’m really looking forward to it.  I’ve been worshiping with these songs all week and it has been so uplifting.  So Sunday morning, y’all just let go and worship.  It’s gonna be great to worship together!

Raymond and I are doing the special music this week.  We’re doing a song that I’ve been wanting to share with our church family for several months now.  I won’t tell you what it is, but I will tell you that it is beautiful.  Raymond plays beautifully on this song and feels the same way I do about it…that it will be a blessing to you.  Hopefully my voice will hold out until Sunday and I won’t start crying in the middle of it.  It really moves me.  This song has been such a blessing in my life and I hope it will be in yours as well.

Finally, I want to tell you something very personal.  I could really use your prayers this week and next week.  Feb. 19th marks one year since we lost my older brother, Neil, in a car wreck.  After his funeral, I felt almost guilty that I hadn’t grieved more.  In fact, I sang in church the following Sunday.  My heart hurt, but I still needed to worship the way I was made to worship.  But a few months later, reality hit and my world came crashing down around me.  And before I could fully deal with it, our church (not Heart of Worship…the church we used to go to) had a major traumatic split.  It was absolutely heartbreaking and I had no clue how to react since I’d never been in that situation before.  So I was overwhelmed with grief over losing my brother and grief over losing my church. 

In the last couple of months, I’ve finally gained peace over the church split.  My heart still hurts because people we used to see every week are now rarely seen, but I have peace.  I still have no peace over losing Neil.  I’m still confused and heartbroken.  And this is not the kind of anniversary I ever thought I’d see.  Watching my parents hurt is just tearing me up and I can’t do anything to make it better.  I can’t even make myself feel better.  So please pray for me and for my parents.  This week and next week are going to be particularly hard for us.  Thank you.


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